‘Only By Grace’
a series of reflections for Easter in the form of monologues by Judas Iscariot
This series of reflections take a different stance on grace than you may have experienced previously – this is grace through the eyes of Judas Iscariot. Written as a dramatic presentation, these posts during holy week 2017 are adapted from the original script. If you are joining part way through the journey, do head back to the introduction before continuing with the actual monologues.
OFFER OF GRACE
Being close to temple life, I soon realised how corrupt the religious leaders were. I saw how closely they collaborated with the Romans and made certain the Jews stayed in line. I grew more disgusted with each passing year.
In time, I vowed that should there ever appear a leader, a teacher, a rabbi, who showed signs of a willingness to challenge the establishment, to lead an uprising, I would cast my lot in with his.
Sitting in the temple courts, my heart was drawn to the teaching of a strange new Rabbi. He kept speaking about the kingdom of God and I came to believe it was his way of speaking about the coming revolution.
Like the others, the Rabbi chose me, I didn’t ask, I followed. I wonder now if he knew from the beginning, If he did then it was an offer of grace. In following Jesus I thought I’d finally found a leader worthy of my devotion – a man who could overthrow Rome.
For three years I followed, waiting for this kingdom to come, waiting for the revolution. Day after day we walked and ate and prayed, we listened to countless parables yet the kingdom of which he spoke was kept from us.
It wasn’t all hardship, we attended a wedding in Cana where Jesus performed his first miracle. He turned 6 stoneware jars of water into wine, the host was amazed at the quality but that was just the beginning…
In those three years I witnessed sights I thought impossible. He healed a man of Leprosy, he honoured the faith of a centurion, he spoke with Samaritans and harlots and ate with the unclean. He commanded the very wind and waves, he healed the mute and taught us to pray;
Our Father which art in heaven, Hallowed be thy name. Thy kingdom come, Thy will be done in earth, as it is in heaven. Give us this day our daily bread. And forgive us our debts, as we forgive our debtors. And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil: For thine is the kingdom, and the power, and the glory, for ever.
lame men walked, blind men saw, others were freed from their demons and dead men rose from their graves…. Yet I grew disillusioned by his promises.